If you don’t recognize the photo, it’s a sunrise on Lake Michigan taken from a hotel in Chicago. Chicago, it seems, is a part of my heart, as someone dear to me lives there. I’m not in Chicago and did not take the photo; my husband did, and emailed it to me in DC. He went there when I left for a long-needed vacation with a dear friend. It seems a part of my heart lives in DC as well. And in Oregon, and in Las Vegas. In fact, if I tally it all up, parts of my heart are in Alaska, Texas, Canada, San Francisco, St. Louis, San Luis Obispo, Ukraine, Minnesota, North County San Diego, Mexico, and all over nooks and crannies of the Los Angeles area.
Our hearts are amazingly expandable. I can sit here looking out into the forest and feel my heart in all those places, seeing the faces of loved ones and friends and flashes of memories. When I choose to spend time and money to see them, I’m recharged; but when I’m focused on other things, I can tune into my love-line, visualizing the beautiful faces and locales. Like pearls on a necklace, they shine brightly.
Vacations give us a change of perspective if we are willing to move with the energy of newness. The energy of newness is slow energy. Being here in DC, along with the reddening trees, my pace is slow, even slower than my newly crafted, self-employed life has offered me the chance to be. Slow energy is something I experienced as a dancer. Slow energy is not lazy energy; as a dancer I moved all day, first in modern, then in folk, then swimming for a change of pace, and lastly in the studio for choreography or a master class. Slow energy is being fully alive and at the same time present to mind, body, and spirit. Slow energy crawls up our bodies from the center of the earth, grounding us with intention. Slow energy is different from LA, fast-paced energy, the kind that makes us believe that we must get so many things done in a day. On vacation I set aside more of my “shoulds” and move more akin with my dancing self, with more intention and less restriction. Although my home provides me with the beach and beautiful weather, I seem to allow daily life to intrude on my real appreciation of the kind of presence provided by slow energy.
Today is day six of my vacation. It’s been a long time since I have been away from home without a work agenda for an extended length of time, and three more days are to come! I’m able to make this time available to myself firstly because I ask for it, secondly because I have a wonderfully understanding husband, and thirdly because I have a kind and generous friend who shares her home with me for as long as I like. It’s easy to step into slow energy surrounded by the greenery, the freedom to plan my days minute by minute, and the patience and ease of a truly open hostess.
As I sit here, my fantasy becomes one in which all of my special people, all over the world, can know one another and see each other as I see them. Next, the locus of the fantasy as me, becomes a many faceted matrix composed of each of them as the center of their own wonderful, heart-opening lives. I imagine the world, criss-crossed by the fabric of human compassion, lit by one face and one snapshot at a time the movement of loving energy all over the planet. I wonder if I can bring home awareness of the peace and love I feel as I sit here alone, filled with the slow, purposeful, and intentional energy that follows us everywhere we go!